Heaven beside you, Hell within.....

I'm not feeling too well. I can't pinpoint why, but it's almost as if something is not quite right. An unsettling of sorts. The last time I felt this way I was in high school and it lasted six months. At least I produced some rockin' artwork, but I threw it all away shortly after. I've been having more nightmares too. More than usual and for the past few days I've been waking up in tears. Maybe this is the beginning of a creative spurt. That's what really doesn't make sense, I've had plenty of those, but I just have a feeling that this is going to be an unbelievably intense time. It's as almost as if I'm getting myself prepped up for a huge change. If I can compare the feelings I'm experiencing right now to anything it's the feeling of taking a deep breath before vomiting....Dizzy, confused, nauseated.