Heaven beside you, Hell within.....

I'm not feeling too well. I can't pinpoint why, but it's almost as if something is not quite right. An unsettling of sorts. The last time I felt this way I was in high school and it lasted six months. At least I produced some rockin' artwork, but I threw it all away shortly after. I've been having more nightmares too. More than usual and for the past few days I've been waking up in tears. Maybe this is the beginning of a creative spurt. That's what really doesn't make sense, I've had plenty of those, but I just have a feeling that this is going to be an unbelievably intense time. It's as almost as if I'm getting myself prepped up for a huge change. If I can compare the feelings I'm experiencing right now to anything it's the feeling of taking a deep breath before vomiting....Dizzy, confused, nauseated.

Soulmates......

Well, I just have to get a few thoughts out of my system. My sister and I were recently talking about our past boyfriends when she started talking about soulmates and by the way she was making it sound you need a guy to be complete. I'm sorry, I just don't believe in that. I take that back, I'm not sorry. I think it's a bunch of crap. I may sound cynical, I'm really not, but I don't like the idea that I'm not complete just by myself. I have my own thoughts, ideas, and dreams and they are my own and make me me. I don't feel I'm missing anything in my life. Yes, I like to go out, yes guys are fun (sometime more fun than I should have!), but I don't need one to appreciate life around me. Who wants to be in an A frame relationship when an H fram relationship is better. A = both lean on each other, when/if breakup happens both fall. H = both are separate, but joined by common link, when/if breakup happens neither fall and are alright. Ok, enough venting on that subject.

I finally got a new book in the mail and it's FREE!!! I love getting Advance Reader's Copies! _Hidden_ by Paul Jaskunas. It looks like a good read, I'll give myself the weekend to read it.

I've been keeping up with my five miles a day. I think I'm getting addicted to it actually. One thing is for sure, I have bunches more energy and I've been sleeping a bit better, oh that's two sure things then. I've also noticed that I've been drinking more water than a fish. I don't know if that's possible, but heck, it sure seems I'm trying to break the record.

**Listening to Loreena McKennitt "Book of Secrets"
**Reading Tracy Chevalier's _The Virgin Blue_ I need to finish this book ASAP. I've spent far too long on it.

Get Some!!!

I miss "Talk Soup," with John Henson. Boy, was that guy hilarious or what? GO, SKUNK BOY! Of course I'm still a little traumatized seeing him with fried chicken. GET SOME!!! Hahahah! I heard he has a new show on Spike Tv, but for some reason I'm not too into trying to watch it.

Muscles (my sister!) and I did our five miles again. I feel so much better because I totally slacked off yesterday. Unfortunately my blister is still acting up and around our second mile, I could feel it bleed. I'm kinda proud that I didn't quit though. I did have it wrapped, but it still stained my sock. Damn, and I love those socks - they had Gonzo on them. Nothing a little extra Tide or Gain with bleach can't handle though huh?

I'm supposed to see Troy tomorrow with Dad. Heck, I'll see any movie with a full cast of hotties. Should be an entertaining film. I do care about the plot, and if the story stays true, but with that much eye candy, I'm willing to forgive! Nah, really Dad is my movie bud. Besides, if he doesn't understand something I can translate for him. Oh yeah, and this time it's his treat. Yay for a free movie!

**Listening: U2 "Salome"
**Reading: Tracy Chevalier _The Virgin Blue_

All by herself......

Ok. That was sung sarcastically. I just found out that Jasmine has been voted off of American Idol tonight. Finally. It's about time. I have nothing against her, she seems like a really sweet person, but her singing just doesn't crack it, well literally it does, but anyway. Now it's just Fantasia and Diana. I'd prefer Fantasia to win, but I wouldn't mind Diana taking the title. As long as they have the voice and energy, and they both do.

Enough of that.....I didn't do my five miles today. Eh, no worries. There is always tomorrow. I can't help it if my left foot is not being very cooperative today. Just call me Gimpy. I've been walking with a slight limp because my ankle is hurting a bit. Not to mention that my blister on my pinky toe popped and bled during yesterday's workout. Ouch. I haven't had a blister in several years and I forgot how much they hurt. Hopefully I won't have anymore. Guess it's time I gave myself a pedicure. Which gives me all the more reason to buy some cute sandles this weekend.

Oh yeah, I spoke to Lucy today. I miss that girl! She's such a best friend! We're going to Vegas sometime around June. Nope, no partying. She's taking her kids. I just need to get out of the area and have some fun. How much fun can you have with toddlers around though? I'm sure I'll have a blast anyway, and her kids are hilarious, so I'm not worried.

First Post....

Well, I finally did it. I created my own blog. After reading countless others and enjoying it, I thought why not? This posting is going to be a short one though. I'll have to update everything tomorrow.